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As cheesy as it may sound to some of you, when I was on spring break in San Francisco , I stopped at a bookstore (which I seem to do at whatever city I'm in) and picked up this book I "randomly" found on a table called Meditations for Women Who Do Too Much. Whether you believe me or not, I do do too much (doodoo too much, hardy har!). Add that to the fact that I go weak in the knees for books, and that's pretty much all the explanation I need to give for why I bought this book.
It's one of those books that's in "one entry a day" format. Now, spring break was about a month ago and I'm just opening this book for the first time. Today's topic is Adrenaline/Busyness. Is that fitting for my life right now or what?
The concluding paragraph reads
Fortunately, we began to see that our adrenaline rushes were exhausting our bodies and out beings. Our addiction to our own adrenaline was as destructive to our bodies as drugs or alcohol. Recovery from adrenaline addiction has been a slow, painful process. Yet, we have the hope of a new life and the possibility of living it in a healthy body....I have discovered that what I used to call numbness may just be contentment, and contentment feels great.
I don't really have any profound thoughts, but I am just meditating on the words of today's entry. I'm busy for many reasons...one is because that's how things have just turned out. Two is that since things have worked out that way, I've been using it to my "advantage" and over doing it. Booking myself, signing myself up for so much stuff just so I'll have something to do and so that I can feel productive.
I don't really think I agree with that last bit about contentment
though. When I've felt numb (or, when I feel numb) it really is
numbness...
I'd like to say that I'll read this book every day. But I really can't make myself any more promises to break. I'm supposedly writing a story writing in my gratitude journal, regular journaling, and doing personal reading (among many many other things) every day. Yeah right. I guess that's why it'd kind of fun for me to be on 43 things -- I can write down the things I want to do, like "simplify my life" and see it as a "published" interactive goal that i really need to work on. I knew I needed to work on it before, but seeing it in print makes it more immediate.
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