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Did you hear the news???
The Spice Girls are planning a reunion tour!!!
They gave us wonderful lyrics like "swing it, shake it, move it, make it, who do you think you are?" and "if you wanna be my lover, you gotta get with my friends." God, they were so huge for, like, two years of my childhood.
You know what....I just might go.
Well, probably not. I never buy concert tickets on time and then when the show rolls around I'm pissed that I didn't buy any.
Kinda Interestin'
Well, today, after various frustrating things happned, I ran off and sought refuge in the library of my university (did I just use refuge and my university in the same non-negative sentence?). I continued my search for rooms to rent, because, well, because I need to rent a room!
I came upon an ad for a co-op in a city east of my school. Regardless of whether I was continuing with school here or not, I’m not sure I want to live anywhere in Los Angeles county that’s east of where my school is. But the co-op sounded interesting. And I had a lot of time on my hands. So I contacted one of the inhabitants and scheduled a time to go over and check things out.
I was introduced to several of the 14 or so people that are currently living in the two houses that comprise the co-op. The houses were quite large and everyone kept asking if I was staying for dinner (I wasn’t). There’s a funky little garden out back, like something I’d have planted myself, quite homey and personal – a far cry from the neat rows of the garden I worked in over in PA just a few weeks ago.
One of the women who resides in one of the houses was very friendly and immediately asked me if I wanted to see her room and her cat. Now, I don’t like cats. But she was so nice, so I consented. After touring that house, she showed me her multi-colored funky fabulous room, and introduced me to her cat (whose name I have already forgotten). Of course, she is an artist in the midst of creating several fun things.
She ended up giving me a card to a local art show that she’s checking out, and gave me the business card to the coffee shop she works at. Who knows, we might even hang out sometime, should we make good on that lovely phrase “we should hang out sometime†that people tend to say and not follow through on.
So there, I met new people.
Oh ho ho
I feel really bad about this one. I mean, not about the goal in itself, but about my lack of attention to fleshing out my thoughts on it. This was one of the first goals I added to my list when I joined 43Things. As many of us who are frequent users of the site may have experienced, sometimes our relationship with certain people goes beyond cheering each other and leaving the occasional comment. There are people from 43T who I have exchanged emails with outside the site. One of the first people to take the time to email me was StarriseAwakening and I feel really bad about never responding to that particular email. (The comments that follow aren’t in reference to her, they are my general feelings on the whole situation)
This whole college thing has just ben a nightmare, and also a nightmare that’s hard to explain to people. And sometimes I don’t want to – not because I don’t want people to understand, but because I think they might not understand after I explain, and that’s what makes it even harder. It’s much easier for me to understand why people don’t understand the changes I’m trying to make when I don’t explain anything to them. But I think once I explain my feelings, what my plans are, what I want to do, and then people still don’t get it – that’s when things get frustrating and that’s when I start to doubt myself. That’s one of the major reasons I get really uncomfortable when people question me about it.
This is unfortunate because I do want people’s insights and opinions on the situation. I really do. But the whole situation makes me really tired and I just got really fed up with it.
So anyway, all that to say, that it’s 95% certain that I won’t be returning to my university this year. I do want to finish college though, and if it’s possible, I want to continue to take courses (someplace else) until I’m fully immersed in another program.
23. and 24.
Groups of friends and random road trips!
Yesterday, G! and a couple of other people came back from a weekend trip to NYC that I decided to sit out on. What a mistake! And I’ll tell you, I regretted that decision right smack in the middle of the weekend.
Anyway, it was a pretty boring weekend without them around (and even more quiet!), but they came back full of stories and telling me they missed me and that I should have gone (I know, I know!)
C came back with a car (thank god) and she’s just this girl full of life and energy and spontenaity that I admire to no end. She got the itch to just go somewhere (which is an itch I often find myself wanting to have scratched), so we gathered N and G! and started driving. G! and I talked about exchanging email addresses and writing to each other (the internship ends in 6 days!).
We ended up in Philly. We parked around 10th and South Street and walked all the way down to the Delaware River and back (at least I think it’s the Delaware). Then we were talking so much that we missed our turn and ended up in Delaware. Woohoo, so now I’ve officially been to Delaware ;-)
I think it was really what I needed. I regret not going with them to NYC, but thats in the past now. I needed to just get out and do something fun with people. I dont have friends that go “lets take a road trip!†and on top of that, I dont have a group of friends – none of my friends are friends with each other! So I dont have those moments in the car where theres 2 conversations going on and you cant hear anything, you’re arguing over what music to play on the radio, and you cant walk down the sidewalk shoulder to shoulder because you dont fit.
Get Thee behind me, all you really spiritual and/or hot people
Argh.
Right now, if you were to ask me who I am most fed up with at present, I’d have to say that it’s spiritual people and hot people. If you’re spiritual AND hot, I probably hate you.
So, part of my internship program is this supposed fostering and growth in the realm of spirituality. So far, it doesn’t seem like any of the participants (including me) are really encountering any spiritual growth. This particularly bothers me because I am so spiritually DRY right now that I’m going insane.
I get so frustrated in our group meetings when something spiritual does come up because I can’t connect to anything anyone is saying. Or when people read poems or some spiritual something or other, they always do it in this….voice. I just want to reach out and strangle them! Good lord! I don’t understand you!
And what’s up with hot people being so hot? That’s not very fair. I guess if I were a beautiful beautiful gay man I would feel differently(to get the joke, read this: http://cogentdiversion.typepad.com/cogent_diversion/2005/07/i_went_to_nyc_a.html).
But seriously. We often take the day camp kids to the pool and I think, “ok, can all the hot girls please leave – RIGHT NOW? No, seriously, y’all need to just pack up and GO.â€
It’s late, I’m going to go lay in bed and fume about hot spiritual people and how they are ruining society.
(kidding…sort of)
Accentuate the positive
Did I spell accentuate right? I don’t think I’ve ever written that word down before.
Anyway, I somehow stumbled upon the following article at Lifetimetv.com (I say stumbled b/c it’s not a site I’d really surf to on my own).
Boost Confidence
Aside from things like “faking it†(which is kind of something Deni has mentioned before) the article suggests creating a Victory File. In a sense, because of all the stuff I tend to save naturally, this shouldnt be too hard to start going.
The only thing left to decide is what the file should be – a shoe box, one of those plastic shoe boxes, a cardboard box, one of those files that you keep bills and stuff in…hmmmm. Decisions, decisions.
3 years down, who knows how many left to go.
Well, I finished another year of college. I didn’t finish well. Hey! I’m just being honest. I can say that it’s a great relief to be done.
I wrote about a book that I’m reading called “First Things First.†Well, on this day, Cinco de Mayo of 2005, my handy dandy book says
Life is learning – from our mistakes as well as our successes. “The only real mistake in life,†said one, “is the mistake not learned from.â€
Well, let me tell you…this whole college experience has been one giant mistake and a mistake that I am trying very hard to learn from.
I’m rapidly trying to set up some sort of plan for the upcoming months. I really don’t know what to do. I know what I want to do, but can I do it? Mmmmm, probably not. But hey, you never know. Life dishes out all sort of suprises. I’m working on it.
But the semester is over and that’s all that really matters at this point. Yay!
What do you want to do with your life?
You know how sometimes you are surfing the 'net. You click a link here, it leads to you clicking a link there, and so on and so forth. Well, I was doing that today and I ended up at a website called 43 Things. I'm already addicted.
I haven't "researched" it, per se, but the style is similar to flickr , so who knows, flickr could own it. I have no idea.
So, I got to this site and thought "What a neat idea! Having a list of things you want to do with your life." It can pretty much be anything you want. You can have one thing on your list if you choose, but the max is 43. Why 43? Again, no idea. I joined right away and was pretty sure I wouldn't be able to come up with 5 things. I thought it would be a list that would take me a couple of days to compile. Boy was I wrong. Five minutes later I was already on the 44th item - time for some re-evaluation!
It's been fun so far and I only joined a couple of hours ago. You compile your list, keep track of how you're doing, you can post updates on each "goal." And there are even some blogging hosts (like typepad) that you can post directly to right from the page.
I think it's pretty cool - I mean, the list can be whatever you want - silly, serious, a mix of both. It's kind of cool now because on some of the things on my list there are 10 people or less, so it's a smaller "team" and better chance to meet people and "cheer" them on (this all makes sense once you see the site). Some goals have a few hundred people in them.
Go, check it out. If you click here you can access my list. It's not in any particular order right now...other than the order I added them in. Join! Tell me your username! Let's be friends - I'll cheer you on!
(I created the "clean out my email inboxes" goal. Tee hee)
My List on 43Things.Com
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